I have a very special person send me this song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNoLJy68ZcE yesterday. She said when she heard it I was the first person she thought of. It literally made my really crappy day turn into a brighter day. While I cried, somehow they were somewhat happy tears. See, I used to tell Chad all the time when I died I wanted him to play "I hope you dance" by Lee Ann Womack at my funeral for him and my nieces and nephews. I always wanted them to live like and dance if given the chance.
Well, without me knowing, Chad chose Lee Ann Womack's song for our mother/son dance at his wedding. It could not have been more perfect, but more than that, it couldn't have meant more to me that he truly knew how important that song was to me.
Ironically (in a very sad way) I ended up adding that song to his slideshow at his funeral. That wasn't exactly what my plan was all along, but as we all eventually all find out, our plans aren't always God's plan.
Yesterday when I heard this song I was taken right back wishing I could tell Chad these very words. I could see he and I have this exact conversation and while it does give me comfort, it sure makes me miss him even more.
Thank you Lindsay for thinking enough of me and Chad to send this song to me. As soon as it is available on iTunes Tia has promised to get it on my phone for me. I can't seem to get enough of this song.
Momma loves and misses you baby boy more than I will ever be able to express, that is, until I get to heaven and can't let go of you (and we won't have to worry about rushing off the parade deck for showing PDA). :D